The void in me

Standstill life has come to amidst the fast track of life.As I always call my life a contradiction, feelings fading away, desires dying out, the fire in me evading with every conscious effort to find someone for life.Shouldnt it be a effortless flow of feelings where u swim across and cross all the boundaries and forsee a future together?Or is it a catalogue partner as a friend of mine used it today?the void is getting bigger and hollower and as a catalyst is making the cup of tolerance overflow with patience...what a stark mix of emptiness and overloaded emotions which cant take the void anymore and kills the desire to give, love, share, cry, and live a life with someone...