My grandmother's death on the 22nd Dec 2011, brought an end to a generation which saw two world wars, change in the system, children, grandchildren and great grandchildren, death of people and what not in a century. Yeah she lived a long and healthy life but died a death which brought end to her physical sufferings of old age. She also left many questions in the mind of many. I guess everyone who leaves this world leaves behind one's near and dear ones and sometimes strangers too guessing and questioning many things about life, its existence and the "UNKNOWN".
The immediate members in the family of the deceased starts wondering if they did justice in the relationship, if the apology was given before the death, if the deceased was taken care of, if there was any lapse from their end and some even keep thinking during the entire process about what if they have to spend from their pockets, or wished the person died soon for the person wasnt in good terms with him/her. It is all about me then also and it is all about me even after the person is gone. How will live, how we will manage, what he/she left for us and the human thoughts keep churning and churning.
"Atma manthan" also perturbs some after death in the family for probably when th realisation of it hits you hard some day. It may come sooner or later but no one escapes the feeling and till one doesnt go through it one cannot relate to it. Like Sarang says our faith has to be shaken for that first, for we all live with this feeling that God is there and will take care of us. We mostly live with the beliefs passed on from generation to generation be it the customs, way of worship, the stories of Moksha, Salvation, heaven and hell and good and bad deeds. It all comes to a halt when nerve wrecking incidents of in lives torment our mind. An early death, miscarriage, disability, financial suffering, illness or let us say suffering of any kind. That is when we question God and it's existence and sometimes also bribe God with our various ways of worship.When things work in our favour god is there and when things dont we question it's existence. but why do we all forget the basic fact that one day we all have to die. We are all born with this fact. it is the mind which controls our thoughts. But we keep questioning for we are humans and till we dont get something it is the most sought after. And since we dont have a control over death despite our progressive ways and how it takes our near and dear ones we fear it and live with the fear because like I said it is all about "I". The day before yesterday I was watching this program in Discovery which showed how Humans are striving hard to live forever and the ways and techniques being tried every now and then. Such is the desperation....lol.
Till date we have not been able to TAKE CARE OF ONE SINGLE PLANET EARTH, leave aside finding new planets and intelligent life around us and then we think of living forever and not let nature recycle bodies in its own way called "death".
Soul is energy which dissipates. It doesnt have any shape. As long as it is in our body the body holds value. The same body after death is burned, buried something which for an alive human is painful. Even the slightest of burn is painful and after death my dadi, my nani or say all our dear ones are burnt or buried. Well this too is a cycle of life. We are born, then we bring in life and the life brings in another life, leaves it to the society for its growth and progress and developments and ultimately fufills the cycle. Parents think a child is theirs, children think one has a set of parents but to me the truth is like nothing is ours.We are part of this universe and will merge in it in the end. It all belongs to this nature. We are mere role players and we come in many forms, many births to do the task assigned. We come alone, go alone, and live with all the emotions till our brains are alive. So why worry so much. Why blame God so much and try and control each and every situation of our lives. let it be. Embrace it, empathise with whoever goes through it and live with compassion. live in the moment.
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